The Invitation

	It doesn't interest me what you do for a living I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dreams for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes." It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.   © 1995 by Oriah House, From "Dreams Of Desire" Published by Mountain Dreaming, 300 Coxwell Avenue, Box 22546, Toronto, Ontario, Canada M4L 2A0

Out Of the Rain ~ Etta James

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RN5fMpMoP38

What's on your mind...?

Every word you speak has a frequency, and the moment you speak them they are released into the universe. The law of attraction responds to all frequencies, and so it is also responding to such words as 'terrible', 'horrible', 'shocking' , 'I hate this', I can't do that...', ' I don't have...' etc. by bringing that frequency back to you. You get more of the same.

The law is impersonal, and simply matches your frequency. When you count your blessings, list your gratitude's, say 'thank you' frequently, you are also sending out energy. Choose your thoughts, words very carefully. Every moment you are co-creating your destiny. Good or bad.

when you REALLY 'get' this, understand your co-creating power... you no longer WANT to say, think, participate in anything but positive. You realize how 'asleep' you have been and how powerful the awakening really is. You realize the gift that you were born with and how you have misused it. You really truly want to live a life of goodness, be goodness, share goodness.

When you consciously decide you are finally over the painful destruction that has taken up so much of your history you make changing your path your first and main priority. You stake out the center of your mind and become the 'hall monitor'. You realize all the limiting beliefs, negative thoughts, harmful conversations, cold case files that have taken dominion over your life. It becomes quite pivotal. With practice you learn how to say STOP! and drop thoughts into an emptiness, consciously saying 'discreate'. you replace negatives with something positive. You recognize thoughts midway and realize you really, truly DO have the power to push 'pause ' and delete'. You are literally re-programming your minds computer. (Stopping conversations is a lot more difficult and takes a lot more practice. However, you DO realize and are fully conscious of what is happening. you find yourself in 'tight spots' realizing the risk involved in real change. Sooner or later the change becomes greater need than dancing with risk.)

Here's the real deal. As you start taking dominion over your own mind; doors that were previously just cracked open start opening wider and wider.. The doors from your mind to your heart, from your heart to your soul open slowly letting light in the darkness. You realize all this positivity you've been feeding your mind actually comes from a whole other source. You can not entertain positivity without connecting to kindness, compassion, forgiveness, hope, .... love. the more you say them, feed the mind with them, the more you feel and experience them, the more power goodness you attract. You realize you're smiling from the depths of your being.

The law of attraction truly works in a mysteriously beautiful way. You can not change your mind without changing your life. You can not change your life without changing your mind.

You realize this change that is happening.... is the center piece to your lifes puzzle. Everything begins to make sense. The whole picture becomes very clear. It is life altering in ways that were previously unimaginable.

the master plan is not one of cruelty but to bring you back home with stories to tell of the lessons you have learned.
Nothing is really as it was or ever will be again. The mission is clear and you continue on with loving, clear intent on what you need to do. ♥

The monster in our minds

(Try this late night thought on for size. :)


Ego: It thrives on control, distorted expectations, deceit, worry, anger, fear, pain, insecurity, possessiveness, materialism and hopelessness.  It will risk and compromise personal values, integrity, worth, esteem and authenticity. It works very hard to keep you in a constant state of illusion and distorted 'reality', fearing loss of 'identity', image and control.

It will go to insane lengths trying to convince you love is behind heart ache when in truth love doesn't hurt. Love is Godly. Love is pure. Love is blissful genuine ecstasy that feels amazingly right.
Most of the pain we experience is amplified by ego's insecurity, expectations, control and conditions. With daily mind/ego/spirit inventory we can learn to identify and defuse, reducing the intensity and lasting affect of pain.

As humans; hurt happens. As awakened souls we transcend it.

Ego is the walls we see when we are looking for the door. It is the invisible man lassoing us down as we try to rise above. It is the shadow from behind as we walk towards the light.

Ego is the erratic 'falty wiring' inside our minds central operating center.  Most of our souls have just been sitting, waiting for us to listen to the goodness within our hearts, to inspire us to start unplugging the wires twisting through our minds...one, by one, by one.

Without egos dominance, there is balance and clarity. Blocks start crumbling, doors start opening. Passages between mind, heart and soul slowly start clearing of life long debris.  As the debris clears; so does the dusty fog revealing the bridge home.

The Flame

It is sitting 'broken', sober and alone with myself in the darkness; understanding I've bottomed out because what I think, what I believe and what I chose, seriously 'failed' myself and others I love.

It is in the raw naked truth.

It is inspecting, examining, conversing with that little flicker of hope in the seat of my soul as I sit cold and numb in the tormenting despair contemplating life or death. It is facing off with life, myself and what's next. It is the realizing, no one, not one person... is going to save me. Not one person outside of myself, walking this earth, has the ability to erase all that my mind and heart have consumed in the last 40 years. Not one person can replace what was lost, heal what was raped, or minimize the levels of pain. Not one person can thoroughly understand it because they can't personally feel it anymore than they can release me from it. Not one human, imprisoned by humanities judgmental ego, expectations and limitations, can unconditionally love me the way my heart craves, my soul thirsts.

It begins with One word....

Soul...
Maybe...just maybe... that IS what this 'life' is all about. Maybe the flicker of hope is unconditional love. Never ending understanding, forgiveness and compassion.
Maybe... that flicker of hope in the pits of hell is a healing flame waiting to be recognized, internalized and lived.

It is pivotal...

It is sitting in the emptiness and erasing the mind like a chalk slate because I'm finally over feeling, experiencing, observing all the sickness, pain, and misery on this earth. What humanity wrote on that slate no longer works. It is not just wanting change. It is desperation's last breath.

It is in the stillness I inhale the flame.

It is there I begin to RE-write the minds slate with words that re- create this life's 'dream' state with a higher reality and purpose; what FEELS right (unconditional love, compassion, forgiveness, kindness etc.).

It is continuously practicing letting go of ALL expectations my ego wants to put on myself and others...daily. LETTING GO of the need to control anything and everything OUTSIDE of my OWN BEING. It is healthy, humbling, humility, acknowledging that it's hard enough learning to control and free myself of my own humanly impulsive/compulsive, self destructive behaviors.

It is accepting myself and others on this journey;understanding we are all here only learning, expanding and rising one moment at a time. It is accepting and forgiving myself and others for different places, paces, stumbles and falls. It is trusting, believing, staying aware, open and willing.

IT...
is my awakening. ♥

Meditation

Why do I meditate...?
Meditation feels like going home. It is kickin back, feeling, enjoying that comfy empty space between thoughts where 'I am' to just 'be'. There I am reunited with my higher self, with God with spirit. I can feel the warm energy surge through my body reminding me of who and what I really am. It is where I am safe, loved unconditionally beyond worldly expectations and judgement. It is where all that is hidden, is exposed. Where reality and serenity meet for council.

 Why am I telling you this...? Because I encourage you to let go. I encourage you to experience that state of true peace and calm. To release your fears and meet your true authentic self. I encourage everyone to go home where we are all one. <3

Letting our light shine

As we keep moving towards the light we process through and shed our earth bound shadows. The more we learn, the more we understand, the more everything starts making sense, the lighter we feel. literally. The weight of life's burden's become lighter. The more deep inner soul work we do to keep ourselves consciously awakening, the more alert we become. 
In this 'alert' state of being; We consistently, consciously understand everything we are going through, experiencing and living is a lesson for a basic higher purpose. We consciously evaluate situations to investigate the learning lesson in it and what we are supposed to do with it. Once it's learned, we understand we will be released from that particular situation, experience...lesson.
The more uncomfortable and/or painful the situation/experience, the quicker we want to learn and transcend.

We DO have to experience trials (painful, mind boggling as some may be...)to learn and grow, but we do not have to carry the weight. We ARE here to learn, grow and transcend. We are NOT here to be miserably weighed down.

We are all souls within bodies. We, who are waking up and realizing what this life is really about, the totality of who and what we really are, we have a responsibility to share our understanding as we understand. We have a responsibility to shine our lights for others to see, for others to feel. In doing so, we are giving their souls 'permission', encouraging them to 'come out' and be who they really are. Encouraging goodness to prevail.

We also Understand that to some we sound ridiculous, as though we are losing our minds, but to others who are ready and are magnetically drawn to the light, we make perfect sense to their souls. We are fanning their inner flames, encouraging their inner light to also shine... thus one by one, 'night' lights everywhere in times of darkness.

 If you are one who thinks I'm losing my mind... :) that's ok. :) I love you. I am not losing my mind (though I have wondered myself...) I am simply on a guided journey, shedding my old self little by little.
In fact, I can't even explain how or where all these words are even coming from this morning...I didn't sit down with writing all of this in mind. ♥